Saturday, April 28, 2007

love breaks your heart,
love takes no less than everything,
love makes it hard,
and it fades away,
so easily...

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what i learned yesterday:

love:
-the sweetness fades after the first month.
-once you're made human, you will be human for the next 6 months.
-no matter how ugly he is, when you're in love, you're in love.
-nothing can ever come between a boy and his love for basketball.
-maturity should come from the girl.
-you will always have to understand.
-it hurts when he makes you feel like he's too busy to talk to you.
-it hurts more when he sounds like he's forcing himself to talk to you.
-you're not allowed to compare but you still do and it sucks.

friends:
-true friends are those you can laugh with like there's no tomorrow.
-no matter how flat chested you are, you will have the guts to wear a two piece when you're swimming with them.
-they will spoil you no matter what.
-they offer the best advice even if they need advice themselves.
-you definitely love them more than your boyfriend.
-vices don't feel like vices when you're doing it with them.
-walang diet diet.
-we're all hot in each other's eyes.

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actually, im really sad today. i didn't cry last night but my eyes feel all cried out. namumugto yung mata ko. don't exactly know if it's because of the chlorine from the pool, which i failed to wash off.(because i didn't wash anything at all.i went straight to bed as soon as i got home.) all i know is im just sad.

the distance and everything else that he's doing right now sucks. i hate texting, and the not replying part, I HATE IT MORE. i hate the fact that he's far away. i hate it that he likes basketball. i hate it that he doesn't talk nonsense. i hate his english.(okay foul) i hate it that he's cold.grabe. i've never been this sad. (nag-e-emote lang ako.i've experienced days worse than this.) it sucks that it seems like he doesn't miss me at all, or that he doesn't have time to tell me that. it makes me even more sad that it has only been a month since we've been together and he's not sweet anymore. HUHUHUHU.

i hate this! i hate me ranting over one person. i hate this! im supposed to be an independent woman! i don't need a man to make it happen nga e! huhuhuhu. this is pathetic.

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im preparing myself for tomorrow. i have a feeling there's going to be screaming and objects flying around the house. im scared. i think there's also going to be crying tomorrow....hay... i wonder when this problem is going to end...:(


(1:46 PM)