Thursday, April 19, 2007

yesterday, we had our first *ehem* date. we had lunch first with alfred, jet and bal at mcdo ust. ok naman. kind of embracing this girlfriend-hanging-out-with-boyfriend's-friends-thing. ok naman sila alfred dahil friends na kami even before maging kami. sobrang laughtrip nila kasama kahit mababaw ung pinagtatawanan. anyway, dumeretso kami ng gateway after para manood ng wild hogs. it was really funny. knowing me, skwater tumawa ever. mushy-han sha ever. hahaha. basta i was sort of feeling something was going to happen but for some reason, it didn't and im not upset but im also not happy. ang weird basta sikret hahaha. anyway, we went out again today and it almost happened.

ok fine. he tried to kiss me on the lips. smack lang naman pero nagulat ako kasi nung una sa cheeks lang, ampucha gulat ako nung kikiss ko lang sa pisngi para mag-goodbye bumiglang nagda moves tapos involuntarily lumayo ako. as in wah okay manang ako forever pero pucha talaga nakakatawa. parang ako, "aaaaaaaaaaah dumidiskarte ka a!" tae pwede na itala talaga sa mga libro tong pangyayaring to. dammit, im telling this story as if it's only for my eyes to read, but it's really weird. lumalaban parin ung inner manang ko. hahahaha. i don't know. it was just so weird. i was like subconsciously waiting for it to happen that when it happened, i didn't realize i was going to move away to the point that it became awkward and now i can't stop talking because i feel embarrassed that i just moved away when all i had to do was to stay put and let it happen and not to embarrass him and now it feels all awkward and he's not texting me because he probably feels weird that i moved away because im probably not ready yet and im feel like im such a baby. whew. wala lang. shet wala lang talaga. im going to be thinking about this for the rest of the day.

anyway, mejo at ease na din ako sa kanya. basta. ung ibang details next time nalang. hehe.

(4:31 PM)