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Friday, May 04, 2007

it's been months since i last had contact with her. it just makes me wonder why she still takes time to check my multiply account when i don't really care about them anymore. it's not that i have issues, it's just weird. seryosong nakakapagtaka. she can just add me if she wants. i really don't mind.

the things that we really want are the things we can't have. bakit ganun? don't we deserve to have at least a portion of what we desire?

our maid is leaving and she's not sure whether she's coming back. how are we going to get through the rest of the summer. i don't intend to take charge of the house. i am not domesticated. i can only cook, wash dishes and water the plants. i can't clean, wash clothes or feed the cats because im not very good at it.

give me a sign if you're still alive because you are not replying and it's unfair that i get screamed at for not replying to any of your messages. injustice to mehn. i am the girlfriend after all. pag-ibig nga naman.

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mat the answer to your question is:

i love him, but i just don't love him enough. i have no idea what is enough. i just know that i do. i just don't like that he's immature and we don't like the same things. maybe things will get better. im praying it will. i don't exactly want a lasting relationship right now.(hahangarin ko nalang yun pag mag-aasawa nako.) i just want a relationship that's worth it, meaning, i want to be treated well and i want to do the same to him.

(11:40 PM)