Thursday, May 17, 2007

i realized how much my life sucks right now while eating a bowl of pasta alfredo i cooked two days ago. just when i thought life was getting better because i already have a laptop to use for my thesis this year, everything is just starting to be complicated around here. my schizo tita is wreaking havoc in the household. she has become this excessively paranoid person who thinks she can't trust anybody, not even her family. it sucks because just when we were rejoicing over the fact that our maid is not leaving anymore, schizo tita causes trouble by terrorizing the maid.(the same way she terrorized ate abs.) naiinis lang ako because im sick of putting up with her. today, i realized how mad i am. i woke up early this morning because my mom was crying while saying she doesn't know what to do with her anymore. kamon. how are you supposed to deal with someone who's mentally impaired? diba? people think it just takes patience and a little understanding to deal with this. if you were in our shoes, you will know how hard it is to deal with her. she needs help but she just won't admit that she's sick. well what do you expect.

sakin, di bale na iniisip niya na kami ung nagcoconnive against her. (as in me, kuya, coco and papa) but for her to think that she can't trust my mom, her very own sister, is just stupid. how could you not trust your own sister, lalo na if you're living in her house, along with her family who puts up with your shit. nakakainis lang. ang hirap magtiyaga. ang hirap hirap. ang hiraaaaaaaaap.huhuhu.

glad im spending the afternoon with pam tomorrow. it helps to get out once in a while. buti nalang may pera ako at buti nalang libre si pam. oh my lord talaga ung buhay namin ngayon.



it sucks to wake up every morning, hearing your mom and your aunt screaming at each other. nothing is worse than waking up to two fighting old women.

(6:59 PM)