Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be. The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want.

--Meredith Grey



true, very very true...T.T

there are decisions that have to be made, people that have to be forgotten and feelings that should be kept to myself to be able to stay with someone. it's hard to choose who to keep but in the end, i realized, i really don't have to pick anybody or to make decisions. all i have to do is to control myself and to keep myself sane. basta. secret. hehe

seriously, i don't exactly know how i will get out of the house on monday to watch spiderman3 with boyfriend. i asked permission from my mom already and i honestly told her i would be going with him. she didn't get angry or anything. all she said was, "ayaw." I couldn't say anything else because her mood changed and that mood lasted until be both went to bed.

i don't like having fights with my mom because she's like my bestfriend. minsan lang talaga, she's the one who creates the gap between us. sana marealize niya yun. i hope she doesn't make the same mistakes she did with kuya with me. mas close kami ng mommy ko at ayaw ko naman na masira ung closeness na yun dahil lang nagkaboyfriend ako nang di ko sinasabi sa kanya.

anyway ang nakakabwisit lang kahapon e nag-away nanaman kami. pero nung gabi, okay na kami ulet pero nagiinsist sha na sa IMAX kami manonood ng spiderman.HELLO! 500 lang ang pera ko tapos ung moa sobrang layo. before we even get there, sobrang dami nang time ang masasayang. we can go watch at gateway and i really don't think that there's a difference.(pwede nga tanggaling ung armrest sa gateway e na nung isang araw ko lang nalaman hahahahahahahahaha.) i guess kasi 3d pero kamon madami pang pagkakataon. sa pasukan nalang kami mag-IMAX pag mayaman nako ulet. as of now, i only have 550 inside my purse and i don't think my mom is giving me money for that. (lalo na at si boyfriend ang kasama.hay.)

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OOOOOH and i already drived the new car!(relatively new) okay naman sha, nagjejerk lang pag nagshishift ng gear. nagshishift din pala ang automatic ano.hehehehe.:P nabinyagan na ng pajama ko ung kotse hehehe.:P

(8:41 PM)