Thursday, July 19, 2007

he asked for time to think. what am i supposed to feel? i feel like a mess right now.

it's okay with me if he wants time to think. i think that's better than me being paranoid like 100% of the time. it's just that i don't feel okay right now. i really can't figure out why. ever since i got back from caleruega, things have not been going well.(relationship wise) im guessing it's my fault because i made things complicated. im sorry but i just can't help but feel terrible. you can't blame me for not trusting him that much. after what happened before, it's just so hard for me to trust him fully. part of me tells me he's really making up for what he did before that's why he's trying his best to be honest.


but sometimes, too much honesty hurts...


even if i feel he really does love me, nahihirapan lang talaga ako to accept na he's confused right now... feeling ko kasi he doesn't love me enough. feeling ko din di ko siya mapasaya ng todo. sabi nga, no matter how hard you try, if you're not the right medicine, you can never cure the pain. maybe im just not doing enough to make him happy kaya kahit anong gawin ko, lecheng di niya makalimutan ung babaeng yun.

to clear things up, i don't hate dharlene.(with an H hahaha) wala siyang kasalanan. it's boyfriend's fault. pag nilandi lang niya si boyfriend, ah punyeta sha. kasalanan na nga talaga niya......... pero malamang yan, di ko malalaman kung ano na nangyayari.





ewan. siguro nga i need time to think too. :(




ganito ba yung pakiramdam ng cool off? parang di muna kayo tapos nakakalungkot tapos may uncertainty kasi di mo alam kung babalikan ka pa niya o hinde?


























huhuhuhuhuhuhu :' (

(10:13 PM)