Tuesday, October 16, 2007

my thesis prof just told me i got a 1.0. im torn. im supposed to be happy about it but i feel i really don't deserve it. sabi niya i deserve it daw, i should keep up the good work so he won't regret giving me the grade. honestly, may effort naman ako, un nga lang, basing it on my standards of effort, feeling ko i don't deserve it kasi nakikita ko yung ibang mas may effort kesa sakin. pero di naman ako nagpapakita ng empty handed. usually, i have something to show. ayoko mapahiya so whatever it is na nagawa ko, na kahit sabihing di superb pero may sense, pinapakita ko parin.

ewan. kung ano ano lang iniisip ko. ayoko lang masabihan ng favorite kase meron nang nagsabi nun. kaibigan ko pa naman kaya parang na-back off talaga ako. basta ang bottom line, i believe i did the best i could do for my thesis, given the number of plates i had to do at the same time. kaya kung palagay ni sir e i complied with the requirements he needed and i did them the way he wanted it done, then i should stop bothering myself about what other people might say about me getting a flat one. besides, i did not ask for it. well, pajoke lang naman since we were joking about it last saturday.(yes jokes are half meant.) ang sinagot ko naman kay sir ay, "shempre gusto hahaha. if you think i deserve it, ok lang po." di ko naman sinabi na karapatdapat ako sa uno na yun.

ewan napaparanoid lang siguro ako. guilt lang siguro kase feeling ko i really did not do my best, basing it from my standards. ay ewan. peste.

magbabasa nalang ako ng harry potter.




im sorry for being a brat. i love you. :)

(12:41 AM)