Thursday, December 22, 2005
this conversation really bothered me...but it taught me something extremely valuable natauhan ako bigla...
juddayson (12/22/2005 11:30:17 AM): i dont believe in destiny
juddayson (12/22/2005 11:30:29 AM): u chose ur own path
gari (12/22/2005 11:30:57 AM): judd you can't force someone to like you.
gari (12/22/2005 11:31:05 AM): worse, you can't force someone to love you.
juddayson (12/22/2005 11:31:44 AM): but u can make them see that the world will be different if ur by his side
juddayson (12/22/2005 11:31:50 AM): gets?
gari (12/22/2005 11:31:59 AM): hmm..oo gets
gari (12/22/2005 11:32:12 AM): e pano kung masaya lang sha na kasama ka..hanggang dun nalang yun
juddayson (12/22/2005 11:32:22 AM): still try lang
juddayson (12/22/2005 11:32:28 AM): para no regrets
gaaaaaaaaaaaaah. thanks for giving me ideas again. :/
why do i feel like i said too much...well let me say more..
anyway..i just feel a little blue..i don't exactly know why..pero it's all good...i think..argh i got it off my mind like weeks ago..ay fucker tlga...basta..it's not like something bad happened...wala actually..im just confused again...it's like i've been wanting to ask something like "what are we?" or "is this something platonic?"..or "why are you telling me all this stuff?"...
...information overload...and this goes on..
but to hell with me...i said i've accepted things as they are..and im happy with what i already have because it's no use ranting about something you can't have...maybe i could have, but then it's just not me to be slutty and all because that's not what's going earn me your heart...i know i will always be that silly little girl who adores you..your every move...who rejoices at that feeling of your arm brushing on mine or that particularly awkward moments when i unintentionally link my arms to yours or maybe the moments when you'd hold my wrist (not my hand mind you..) when we cross the street...i wish i could just chronicle every moment i spend with you...it's good we have pictures..
things have changed but in my heart, you will always be that silly fish...silly but extremely important..i don't know what's bound to happen..im quite contented or i at least i try to be...it's just fun being with you and seeing how different we are now from how we were before, im just happy knowing you'll always be there for me when i need you..
when i look back at all the trouble i went through for you,the escapades and adventures, the silly conversations, the times i cried when we fought...the humiliation...(the shameful crying moment at the breakfast table.XP) i guess it's all worth it...i know in the end there's something nice waiting for me..im not saying things might go my way...and im not expecting it either...all i know is that im not out to get you anymore...if you're the one for me then that's the best thing that can ever happen to me...but if in the end, you end up with someone else, which is what im expecting, then i'll be the happiest for you...maybe it pains me a little...pero ok lang because as you said, you want me to think of you as the person who equipped me with the things i need to love better...but to me, you will always be the person who made me feel like im the best in everything i do...
a few moments ago, i thought i was only one of the many girls drooling at the sight of you...but when you said i was important(maybe not in that lovey dovey way..) at hindi kung sino sino lang, i actually felt better...i still don't know if you see me in a different way or kung kahit konti may pagtingin ka naman sakin...ok nalang sakin lahat...kasi sigurado nako na importante ako sayo tulad din ng ibang pinahahalagahan mo...
ok nako. *bow* it's pretty obvious this is for martin...but i don't intend for him to read this..freedom of expression lang.