Monday, August 20, 2007
i am so happy i finally finished my textile plate. doing that plate feels like planting rice in the fields all day. parang tanim ka ng tanim pero di parin mapuno ung buong bukid. i am just so glad it is done. all i have to do is to wrap it with plastic cover to keep it clean. hay ang sarap! kulang nalang bigyan ako ng award for best in textile design. HAHAHAHA JOKE.
i just realized i can paint really well pala if i put my heart into it. okay, i know it's stupid to say that now kasi gagraduate nako but it just feels so good na kaya ko pala gumawa ng sobrang linis. i wonder why i didn't do that back in my early college years. anyway, i promise to do my next plates properly. who knows i might get really good grades this time. gusto ko nang magsipag.(not because i am depressed right now and i need to drown myself with schoolwork.) i have so much work left to do, including my thesis. stressed nako mehn.
im so weird. right after i finished my textile plate, i decided to try on the stuff i bought yesterday. as in the whole outfit. nakakatawa ako, sobrang saya ko lang tlga na natapos ko ung textile kaya ko ginawa un. anyway, i tried on both pairs of skinny jeans and i realized i was really skinny. e kamusta naman ngayon ko lang napansin na lampayatot pala ako.
and thinking about it...im not sure if i should be alarmed that i am skinny or if i shouldn't worry dahil ganun talaga ang built ko. somehow feeling ko naman di ako dapat magworry kasi normal na sakin ung ganito. di ko na dapat problemahin, swerte pa nga siguro ako. i mean, some people starve themselves just to become skinny, which is wrong because you are supposed to be contented with the body that you have. kung may need naman magpapayat for health reasons, wala naman masama magdiet. kung magddiet ka lang just to be skinny, mali na yun.
pero...magpapataba nako ng konti kase napagtanto kong lumuluwag ung iba kong damit. hahaha. e un lang. lagi nalang kelangan stretch ung damit ko para kumasha sakin. hay.
oi in fairness ang landi ko na ata ngayon. nag-aayos nako. well, another realization. i want to fix myself up not because i want my boyfriend to take me back. im fixing myself up because i want to look pretty for myself. kung narealize niyang maganda ako at dapat sinuyo niya ako ulet, problema na niya yun. dati nakong maganda, di lang niya napansin dahil sabi niya ordinary daw ako. chaka di lang ako nag-susuklay. HAHAHA KAPAL.
tama na nga. naluluto nako sa sarili kong sabaw. hahaha