Monday, December 15, 2008

i hate this feeling. ever since we broke-up, nagkakaroon ng mga panahon na naiinis ako sa kanya to the point that it practically ruins my day. kadiri kasi im talking about last night's "wrong send" incident. alam ko na kung bakit ako sobrang pissed off. eto yun e. he's helping her with her thesis, and they're using my thesis book as a guide. pota. i don't know what's worse e, ung ginagamit ni "girl" ang thesis book ko o ung tinutulungan sha ni "ex". bwisit. not that im selfish. i lent it to her kasi hiniram naman niya ng maayos. i just wasn't expecting na of all the people, she would ask him for help. tangina naman. (alam kong close kayo pero dba, sa dami naman ng kaibigan mo siguro naman meron ka pang ibang pwedeng hingan ng tulong no.)

nakakainis, dahil nung kami pa, we always fought about this same girl. ayoko lang mag-issue sa classroom dati kaya di ko inoopen mashado kela feli ung idea na nainis ako don. diba laging there's this one girl na di mo alam kung bakit pinagseselosan mo ng sobra. selos na selos tlga ako sa babaeng un kase kerengkeng sha. mabait naman sha e, sadyang kerengkeng lang. isa yan sa mga ironies ng mundo. you can be the nicest person in the planet, but somehow, there's a flaw. un lang ang flaw niya hehe. e tapos laging ginagamit ni boy na pampaselos un kase alam nga niyang nagseselos ako dun. nakakaasar lang kase hanggang ngayon na wala na nga kami, ginagamit paren niya. ano ba yan. at nagselos naman ako. bobo din e no.

sana pagtulog ko ngayong gabi e mawala na tong inis ko, kase ayoko na sanang dalhin to sa trabaho. alam kong si boy ay hindi "all that." pero gusto ko paren sha. it sucks pero totoo. i don't want to be in denial anymore. that's the truth. malas lang at di tanggap ng lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay. (haha including my workmates and my college friends. ) he makes me feel like i need to have a boyfriend. i was perfectly happy with myself until he opened the idea of getting back together. and then he pulled back just because i thought it was a bad idea and we were now getting along better as friends.


i hate monday sickness.

(9:00 PM)