Wednesday, April 04, 2007
my god magpakumbaba ka na.
just finished drinking coke. love ko ang coke. coke addict forever. haha.
the idea that im turning 20 in a few weeks time just won't sink in. it's unacceptable. kadiri. i just realized that i've been through so much in just 20 darn years... my life is not exactly MMK worthy but it has its own spice.
in a span of 20 years, i became a battered child, i became the smartest girl in the whole batch once and had my share of 73's, 74's and 75's.(muntik ko nang makumpleto ung line of 7.galeng! haha) i ran for student council twice and also lost twice.(dead kid ampota.) from an all girls school, i moved to another all girls school. i got busted twice by a girl who i barely knew. i fell in love, got my heart broken, fell in love again and got my heart broken twice and now i have a boyfriend.:) i turned 18 and had a party fit for a princess na may kasamang sayaw with a prince.(yihee.:P) and im glad i met friends whom i would surely keep until the day i die. im about to spend my last year in college and im hoping it would really be my last:D
andami pang nangyari na di ko na binanggit at andami pang pwede mangyari. this is just the first half of the rest of my sick life. i hope 20 is not as bad as 17,18 and 19. i do hope my next years will be ok and i hope i do better this time. nakakatakot lang because i feel like im not ready for the real world yet. i strive for independence but reality of independence scares me. nakakatakot lang. takot ako mag 20. hay.
finally, im home after three long days. okay naman. bataan is always a relaxing place although hindi parin kami talaga ok ni mama. ewan ko. it's just hard to read her. it's either she's still upset or she's just being indifferent. ewan ko. anyway, im not going out of my way to please her or im not even forcing eric to do the same. mahirap na, baka bastusin lang sha ng nanay ko. gusto ni eric kausapin sha at suyuin.(at ang sweet, pati si mama ay may pasalubong from malaysia.achus winner ka dodong! hehehe) i completely understand why my mom is acting this way. naiinis lang ako dahil masaya ako ngayon pero di niya magawang maging masaya para sakin. anyway, enough about that dahil ayoko nang isipin un. mabuti nga't naguusap naman kami. alam kong maiintindihan din niya eventually.
grabe naburo din ako sa bataan. buti nalang din nagteks si pare. sobrang miss ko na siya. well at least nageenjoy sha dun. andami na daw niya nakita. shempre nainggit ang lola mo pero ok nalang din kasi nageenjoy naman sha. at least pag balik niya may kuwento na sha sakin at di puro nalang ako. sana ay nasa mabuti shang kalagayan kase namimiss ko na talaga sha. achos ang landi! hahahaha. hay...
pero miss ko parin sha. aylabyu dear. hehe:P