Saturday, June 30, 2007
The Two of Chalices card suggests that you should rely on and be receptive to genuine love, empathy and emotional support. Your appreciation, sacrifice and pursuit could be rewarded with a meeting of the minds. Be prepared to seal the deal with a kiss or a toast, or to make a major decision regarding your relationship or love life -- one that could affect your level of commitment or domestic happiness. By meeting each other on common ground as equals or by sharing your feelings and intentions honestly and without fear or restraint, you can come to an understanding, see both sides or initiate a romantic transformation that may be mirrored in your partner's eyes.
i feel like crap today. it's like i woke up on the wrong side of the bed. it sucks really. as far as i can remember, i went home really sad last night. boyfriend and i were supposed to go home together. it's not like he promised to take me home. it's just that next week, he's going to start living in his dorm and i will be going home alone again. walang, symbolical. maarte ako e. i just wanted to go home with him because we won't be going home together for i don't know how long. like i said, maarte lang talaga ako...
im really bothered by a lot of things. i really don't want to talk about this with him because i know i will look like the bad person. dati, sabi ko, sasaya ako pag nagkaboyfriend ako kasi meron nakong mahihingahan at meron nakong makakasabay pauwi. meron narin akong kasama manood ng sine at magikot sa mall. may constant date nako. in short, meron akong makakasama na alam ko na akin lang at pasasayahin ako. somehow, i think im a bit selfish. no, I AM SELFISH and i suck, big time. i am sad because he does all this for me. he makes me happy. di ko alam kung bakit nakukulangan parin ako. na hindi lang niya ako nasabayan umuwi kagabi at may moment na parang ang cold niya, nageemote nako ng ganito. nakakadiri dahil hindi naman ako ganito e. feeling ko kasi ako lang ang selfless. ako lang ang magcucut(isang beses lang naman to) at ako lang ang mag-aantay. unfair ako kasi inaantay din naman niya ako pero nagrereklamo ako ng ganito. wala talagang sense ung inis ko. ang labo labo ko. sa totoo lang, gusto ko shang makasama at gsto ko sana masaya kami pag magkasama kami kasi di ko alam kung hanggang kelan kami magiging masaya kasi baka masurprise nanaman ako na nagbago nanaman isip niya tungkol sakin. napakaparanoid ko nakakainis pero wala akong magawa. huhuhu kaya ayoko nang magmahal e, napaparanoid ako! huhu
ewan ko ang labo labo ko.
when did talking become so hard for me?
"then you came."