Sunday, December 14, 2008
kakaasar kumakanta pa naman ako ng "sana ngayong pasko" sabay ganyan! pakshet tlga.
ako'y magsusulat ngayon kase ako'y naiinis to the point na naiiyak ako. ung sobrang inis lang na di pinipigil mo. eto kasi un e...
i was busy reading the third twilight book. i've been reading since 3 pm.. before that i was wondering why i never heard a thing from him mula kahapon. iniisip ko nga baka kasi nakita na niya ung portfolio ko, something he needed to see na mapagkokopyahan, kaya di na niya ako kelangan kausapin. nakakainis kasi i want to stop thinking of him as "that" kind of person. we were supposed to be friends again. actually we ate out last week and it was ok kase it was like the good old times, though i still had the same issues.(kesho i didn't know how to act around him. kung tulad lang din nung dati o mas visible na ung line between the two of us na dapat iemphasize na friends na kami.) anyway, mga a few minutes ago, nagtext sha. shempre ako naman mejo naexcite, not that i was waiting for him to text me. ung tipong nagulat ka lang kase iniisip mo palang kung bakit di nagtetext pero di mo naman tlga ineexpect tas bigla nalang magtetext. ang gulo no haha. e un. ung message was something na wala na raw shang ginagawa nanonood na lang. e i don't remember asking him what he was doing so most probably e wrong send lang un. so i didn't mind it too much. patext palang ako na nawrong send sha, nagtext na sha kagad na nawrong send sha and the message was meant for mika. wtf. alam mo un nakakaasar kase kelan naman naging magkatabi ang mika at gari sa phonebook? diba?pota nakakaloko naman un. anyway, magrereply sana ko ng mukha nga, fortunately wala na akong load so di na sha nagsend.
pero nabadtrip ako. di ko alam exactly kung bakit. di ko alam kung nagseselos ako na si mika pala ung dapat matetext niya or kung feeling ko nananadya lang sha na kunyari nagkamali sha to see what my reaction would be. screw him. alam naman niya na meron paren shang unusual effect sa akin. nakakaasar. kung nangaasar salamat kase naaasar tlga ako pota ka.
i don't know if im more upset than sad because i found out that he's texting mika about something other than her thesis matters.
gsto kong maging salbahe pero wala sa lugar e. tangina naman kase.