Wednesday, October 03, 2007

The Emperor card reversed suggests that this Emperor might have issues with performance, dependency, authority or accepting consequences. He may expect others to provide for him, or he'll make unreasonable excuses for his failures or neglect while tending to indulge his passions casually or without commitment or respect for others. Protect yourself, accept these shortcomings, or be prepared to assume responsibility on your own. If you believe you have to be sexual or controlling in order to feel valued, then the absence or rejection of this influence might need to be healed before you can feel secure.

dhfjadhfjhadhfjhdafhkajhdfkjhdslhfsa.. i want to talk about something that's unlikely of me but i guess i won't because.... basta. haha

just came from school and an overnight at jeka's house. hapong hapo na ako. we slept at 4am and woke up at 8. sobrang groggy parin ako. im really really tired and the last thing i need to hear is my dad having suspicions of me being in another place other than school. im not going to be a hypocrite. im not exactly a good child. shempre maraming beses nakong tumatakas at nagpapasukpasukan, or worse nagcucut, but when i say im going to sleep over at someone else's house, i don't lie about who that person is kasi pag nahuli ako sa ganyan, it's the last sleepover i will ever have. naiinis ako sa tatay ko kasi he's coming up with all these suspicions and i don't know where the heck he is getting this all from. nakakabwisit lang kasi pagod na pagod kang uuwi, naghihirap sa school work, nagpupuyat kahit sa bahay ng iba tapos kung ano anong katangahan lang ang sasabihin. itxt pako na i-on ang "stupid phone" ko. sheesh, sino kaya ang stupid, if i could turn on my phone, e di sana in-on ko na at nagreply ako or sumagot ako sa mga tawag nila. ang bobo diba? ewan. pagdating ko tuloy, sinalubong ako kagad tapos iinterrogate-in dapat ako, inunahan ko na at sinabi kong low batt ako. at tinry kong i-on yung phone ko, shempre pahiya tatay ko kasi hindi nag-on diba. leche. hintayin niyong matapos ako sa pag-aaral ko, araw araw akong uumagahin.

to make matters worse, bukod sa pagod ako, di ako tinetext ni boyfriend the whole day. as in, tnext lang niya ako nung mga 6pm na, yung tipong parang naalala niya lang na "ay shet may girlfriend pala ako..." tangina. im really not the texty kind of person but he has this thing for immediate replies or "text me when you're there.." shit. pag matagal ako magreply or hindi ako magtext, it's like the end of the world. super nababadtrip sha which i think is really annoying. kaya kanina nung nagtext na sha, ako na ang nag-alboroto. usually di ako nababadtrip, but now that im really tired, sleepy and sick all at the same time, i just had to let out some steam and gave him a good yell. nakakairita kasi e. and he came up with this excuse na he wasn't able to text me last night because they had no power and nagkaroon lang sila 8 am kanina. nalow batt sha and chuva. mga ganon. it's really annoying. come to think of it, e di sana nakitext sha kay jet na wala na shang batt. napakainsensitive ampota. di ko nga tinetext back. mabulok sha. looks like he's having a ball now that i am extremely busy. i am definitely becoming a bitch about it because im tired and sick and i just need attention. hay. sige i shall now get back to work because i'd rather use up the remaining energy that i have on work that needs to be done instead of wasting it on people who need to work on their life issues.

haha bitch talaga e no. sorry, pag walang tulog, kupalan na.

(8:45 PM)

1. last beverage:

2. last phone call:
i don't remember

3. last cd played:

4. last time you cried:
kanina muntik na.

5. last text message to:


1. dated someone twice?

3. kissed someone & regretted it?

4. lost someone special?

5. been depressed?
a couple of times

6. been drunk and threw up?
a couple of times


oo na lahat na hehe


1. Made a new friend?
it's a new month, i'll see

2. Laughed until you cried?
di pa

4. Met someone who changed your life?
this month??
not yet. it's just the beginning.

5. Found out who your true friends are?
dati pa

6. Is there something you want to tell
wala pa naman

7. How many kids do you want to have?

8. Do you have any pets?

9. Do you wanna change your name?
not anymore

10. What did you do yesterday?
nagpuyat. @_@

11. Last time You had pizza?
last saturday

12. What time did you wake up today?

13. What were you doing at 10:30 p.m?
making our mock-up

14. Name something you CANNOT wait for?

15. Last time you saw your father:
kanina lang and he's being an ass so i really cannot say anything more.

16. What is one thing you wish you
could change about your life?
right now? just my work ethic because i can't get anything done

17. What are you listening to right

18. Have you ever talked to Tom?
sa myspace nanaman. loser ampota

19 . Who's getting on your nerves right

20. Most visited webpage?

21. Coke or Pepsi

22. Have you seen anyone naked in the
past few week?

(8:34 PM)