Wednesday, July 25, 2007
"so pick me. choose me. love me."
this line has been playing in my mind since last week and i just can't get it out. probably because it's what i've been wanting to say to him. we haven't spoken for two days and im like, looking at my phone every 3 minutes hoping a message comes in. i miss him. sobra. it sucks because my hands are itching to text him, ask him how he is but i just can't because im not supposed to. mat asked me to do this design thing for him again and i can't get anything done. im supposed to separate work from personal problems. etong ayoko sa mga ganitong pangyayari. kahit ayaw mong isipin, hahanap at hahanap to ng paraan para manggulo ng utak. it's like a dressed up wound that's still hurting.
you know what else sucks? di ko alam kung ano na nangyayari sa kanya. ni ha, ni ho, wala talaga.
i hope you find it in your heart to have the urge to text me because i am longing for you. :(
napagtanto ko na may wrong grammar kaya nag-edit ako.(echos excuse ko lang to kasi wala tlga akong gana.) im just so super not in my usual self lately. i can't get anything done. puta. are break-ups supposed to be this bad? sabi nga ni feli na qinoute niya pa sa movie na "still life", kung wala ka nang dahilan para mabuhay, maghanap ka ng bagong dahilan. though i sound OA, i am not. i just feel bad, but not bad enough to make me want to die. i know there are many fish in the sea. im just hurting over this one person who made me feel happy to be me. i know i'll be okay eventually. i just need a moment to feel sad. entitled naman ako e.
nakakatawa ano, day 2 palang ng pagbbreak namin, andami ko nang nasulat na kabaliwan. kung malandi lang siguro ako, nakarecover nako kagad. it's nice to be human once in a while. i used to not care about these things. i thought people who's relationships have ended tend to act extremely OA. it hurts pala. hahaha.
shet sana diba gumawa nako.HAHAHA
apat na buwan na sana kami ngayon. naiisip kaya niya ako..?