Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be. The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want.

--Meredith Grey



true, very very true...T.T

there are decisions that have to be made, people that have to be forgotten and feelings that should be kept to myself to be able to stay with someone. it's hard to choose who to keep but in the end, i realized, i really don't have to pick anybody or to make decisions. all i have to do is to control myself and to keep myself sane. basta. secret. hehe

seriously, i don't exactly know how i will get out of the house on monday to watch spiderman3 with boyfriend. i asked permission from my mom already and i honestly told her i would be going with him. she didn't get angry or anything. all she said was, "ayaw." I couldn't say anything else because her mood changed and that mood lasted until be both went to bed.

i don't like having fights with my mom because she's like my bestfriend. minsan lang talaga, she's the one who creates the gap between us. sana marealize niya yun. i hope she doesn't make the same mistakes she did with kuya with me. mas close kami ng mommy ko at ayaw ko naman na masira ung closeness na yun dahil lang nagkaboyfriend ako nang di ko sinasabi sa kanya.

anyway ang nakakabwisit lang kahapon e nag-away nanaman kami. pero nung gabi, okay na kami ulet pero nagiinsist sha na sa IMAX kami manonood ng spiderman.HELLO! 500 lang ang pera ko tapos ung moa sobrang layo. before we even get there, sobrang dami nang time ang masasayang. we can go watch at gateway and i really don't think that there's a difference.(pwede nga tanggaling ung armrest sa gateway e na nung isang araw ko lang nalaman hahahahahahahahaha.) i guess kasi 3d pero kamon madami pang pagkakataon. sa pasukan nalang kami mag-IMAX pag mayaman nako ulet. as of now, i only have 550 inside my purse and i don't think my mom is giving me money for that. (lalo na at si boyfriend ang kasama.hay.)

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OOOOOH and i already drived the new car!(relatively new) okay naman sha, nagjejerk lang pag nagshishift ng gear. nagshishift din pala ang automatic ano.hehehehe.:P nabinyagan na ng pajama ko ung kotse hehehe.:P

(8:41 PM)



I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye

(8:34 PM)



ANUNG KUWENTO NG...?
1. anung kwento ng pangalan mo?
> margarita - gusto daw ng mami ko yan. capinpin - galing sa lolo kong colonel. salvador - galing kay phillip salvador.hehe joke lang, apilido ng tatay ko.

2. anung kwento nung 7th bday mo?
> I went to the states

3. anung kwento last bday mo?
> vumideoke kami at kumain

4. anung kwento ng 1st lovelife mo?
> teka, mahabang kwento yan, next time na.

5. anung kwento ng lovelife mo ngayon?
> pwede narin pagtiyagaan.hayop talaga e no. hahaha okay naman. puro away lang pero ok.

6. anung kwento ng cellphone mo?
> 2nd hand na pinagpilitan kong ipabili.

7. anung kwento ng computer mo?
> nakikicomputer lang ako. hayaan mo pag dineliver na ung bago kong computer ikukuwento ko ang feeling.YABANG HAHAHA.

8. ano kwento ng kwarto mo?
> masukal.

9. anung kwento mo last christmas?
> ok lang.

10. anung kwento mo last valentines day?
> may date ako pero di ako pinayagan, tapos binati ako ng boypren ko ng happy valentines pero di pa kami non.

11. anung kwento ng chinelas na suot mo ngayon?
> pamporma ko un kaso masarap ipambahay kaya pambahay na sha.

12. anung kwento nung una mong nakita yung crush mo?
> ewan ko. payatot pa sha non e. tapos parang pambahay ang t-shirt tapos ung pambahay ko non terno pa at nagkabanggaan kami.jologs.

13. anung kwento sayo ng nanay mo tungkol kay santa claus?
> totoo daw sha. pero nahule ko sha nilalagay yung gift sa labas ng bahay namin sa may garahe.

14. anung kwento tungkol sa inyo ng boyfriend mo?
> nag-e-englishan kame. as usual panalo nanaman ako.

15. anung kwento nung best movie napinanood mo?
> sa sine? wala pang best. puro korny napapanood ko hehe. ay harry potter chaka wildhogs okay pala un. haha

16. anung kwento nung last time na umiyak ka?
> may kurot paren pero wala nakong magagawa.

(1:04 AM)