Thursday, December 21, 2006
parang napakacrappy ng dsl namin... ewan bsta ang bagal...
naisip ko lang, pucha sha lang talaga nagpapalungkot sa buhay ko ngayon. kung tutuusin wala nakong problema talaga. masaya naman ako sa lahat. pag naiisip ko lang talaga sha nalulungkot kasi ako. ewan ko tangina ang panget kasi e. isipin mo naman, magkatabi na kayo, para paring may pader sa pagitan niyo.
iniisip ko nga, may problema bako. e hindi naman tlga ako nahihiya na sakanya dati. e kahit naman nung alam niya na na may gusto ako sa kanya di tlga ako nahihiya. nahihiya lang ako kapag ung mag-uusap na kami tapos biglang may pupuna na nag-uusap nga kami, tapos mahihiya nako tapos lalayo nalang ako. iniisip ko rin, e ano naman kung parati ko siyang tinitgnan, masama bang tumingin? e pucha yun lang ung pwede kong gawin e. ni di naman niya ako kinakausap ng sha lang tlga ung lalapit.
napakakomplikado niyang magustuhan. realidad lang, mahirap talagang magkagusto sa taong may standards na sineset sa nagugustuhan niya. come to think of it, i used to like mat so much because i didn't need to be or to act like anybody else because he likes me for being me. ako rin naman may standards e. ni-lower ko na nga lang. it's because i know that i really can't have it all. here's what i think:
there is no ideal person. an ideal person is someone you make up in your mind. there is no real ideal person because an ideal person is someone who has everything you will ever want in a person. that person does not exist.
e kung meron mang taong nakaka-fit sa standards na sinet mo, e di perpekto na pala sha. dba?
e anong ibig sabihin nito, should one settle for someone who is less than what he or she has dreamed for?
wala lang. obviously im just frustrated because every single boy i liked has turned away from me and it makes me feel like im the one who has a problem with myself.
sometimes i also wonder why men tend to be superficial. why can't boys just settle for women who are ordinary pero malaki naman ang puso. isn't life more about love than just beauty and sex? minsan iniintindi ko nalang kasi alam ko ako rin naman would go for someone with looks tapos nagiging secondary tuloy yung ugali.
ewan ko. siguro i will eventually find someone when i stop talking about my expectations and when i stop drooling on every boy who fits my fantasy.
yeah yeah and maybe one day i can stop liking you. at sana sa december 31 na yun.
kung tutuusin, e ano kung maliit ako? i may look frail, but im a person with a real heart. i may not be as pretty as you would want me to be but i have the talent and the heart to compensate for my lack of physical attributes. maybe one day you'll realize that you're the one who doesn't have the heart because all you know about love is loving yourself.
and maybe if im stupid for waiting for you to be nice to me, siguro nga tanga tlaga ako magmahal. okay lang. magsasawa din ako.
magsasawa din ako. taga mo sa bato.
(2:14 PM)