Saturday, January 21, 2006
im confused. ok it's not that i don't like mat anymore. yes i guess i still do. it's not about liking vince either. vince is like, a dream brought to life but is still a dream because i can't touch him for obvious reasons. [vince is a first year student, he's super gwapo, he does not know me because he only knows me by name and obviously, we won't get to know each other, ever. we're worlds apart] anyway as i was saying, ang weird kasi e. it seems everybody likes mat. i mean all the girls like mat. and it's like, all over their blogs. parang ang yucky na.it's like he's so common. i mean hindi sa yucky si mat. yucky yung fact na lahat nalang ng babae may gusto sakanya. e yun. yuck as if naman si vince di ganon. well vince is different because for me, he's just eye candy. something to look forward to every single day. im not making comparisons okay. just looking at this at a different point of view. e yun lang. and this is not as if mat is in my hands or anything. i know im just one of the many girls.[even if he insists im not because of course, i refuse to be. ;) ] im just his friend or whatever. ok lang nagigising nalang din siguro ako. ayoko lang mabother. akbayan nalang niya lahat ng babaeng aakbayan niya. para namang mapipigilan ko siya. di ko siya hawak kaya if it makes him happy doing that then there's nothing i can do. im not trying to be over dramatic. im just being realistic. just trying to get my pride back. if im going to like somebody, i don't want the whole world drooling over him. i want to have him all to myself.
from now on, im not posting any of mat's pictures in this blog.[fine even if i started this whole thing because of him.] finding out that other girls do the same is gross. i don't want to be one of them. sige sila nalang magpiyesta kay mat. ako, ok lang hehehe. si tj han nalang at si ronald ang pagpipiyestahan ko.hahahaha. at si vince pala.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yak oo na.
importante ka parin sakin. di naman magbabago yun. andito parin ako sa tuwing kailangan mo ng kaibigan at kayosihan. ayoko nalang dumagdag sa mga iniisip mo at ayoko narin makigulo sa lahat ng babaeng nahuhumaling sayo. malulungkot lang ako kung makikigulo ako. mahirap nang kalaban si deng at corey, pano pa kaya yung isang daan at whatever na babaeng nahuhumaling sayo. sila nalang. parang ayoko na. nakakapagod din. hindi mo naman sinusuklian yung pagmamahal ko. buti sana kung tayo. pero hinde.
gusto ko parin maging si jillian. hahahaha
hay. love is so complicated. pero ang buong mundo, nageenjoy sa pag-ibig.