Sunday, March 09, 2008

My problem is with anybody who just vanishes and then waltzes back in and expects to be instantly forgiven.--peyton sawyer, one tree hill



EXACTLY.

(11:47 PM)



we went to the hospital last night because of some might-have-been emergency. kawawa si baby boy. according to the radiologist who read his x-ray, he has pneumonia or at least a condition that leads to pneumonia. the official results will be released on wednesday pero more or less, talagang pneumonia ang case niya. anyway, last night, i got so pissed at the emergency room of the heart center. we were waiting for like an hour before a pediatrician checked my brother. nakakainis lang kasi bakit isang pedia lang ang meron sila. ang crappy ng procedure sobra. imagine a patient waiting for medical attention at critical na. dahil walang doctor available on the floor, paghihintayin pa. pero ok narin dahil nag-apologize naman ung doctor kasi may pasyente shang critical ung condition. so far, antibiotics lang ung binigay kay rico. kung di maalis ung fever baka iadmit na sha. e yun. hehe kawawang baby boy, takot sa karayom.

kakauwi ko lang din kahapon galing "the vines." ang saya sobra kahit pito lang kami. parang dito ko nadama ung tunay na bonding. tipong kami lang nagluluto, naghuhugas at nag-aalaga sa isa't isa. ang saya lang, perfect bonding experience.shempre mas masaya kung marami kami at nakasama sila asi pero ok narin kasi nagkakwentuhan, nagkabonding at napasarap ang kainan. hehe proud nako talaga kasi feeling ko mabubuhay na talaga kaming lahat ng kami lang hehehe. "sana maulit muli." no pun intended. hahaha

it was crappy looking at the exact spot where it all began because no matter how long i look, things will never be the same again. maybe some things really weren't meant to last. im just glad there are lessons learned. naisip ko lang din na i have so much to be thankful for. ok na sakin kahit wala sha sa buhay ko kasi ok yung pamilya ko pati ung mga kaibigan ko and that's all that matters to me. he can have his way for all i care. march 1 is the last time i will ever cry for him. he's no longer worth my tears. di ko kailangan magtiis. kung ayaw na niya sakin, it's his loss. tama si nick, so what kung mag-iisang taon na dapat kami. maybe we didn't reach that point for a reason and im sure god has a very good reason for not getting us there.

now starting with a clean slate.:)





and im sure you'll miss me. i'll count on that. ;P

(8:57 PM)