Thursday, December 13, 2007
mayaman ako ngayon......sa pasa. hehe
ewan ko napaka-accident prone ko lately. the other night, i spilled dinuguan all over my slacks because my shoulder hit the medicine cabinet.(i wanted so bad to rest that night so i decided not to eat para wala nang huhugasan tapos nangyari yan. sana kumain nalang ako mas onti pa ang aking ginawa hahaha) right now it really hurts although the pasa hasn't shown yet. bumukol sha actually at masakit tlga sha, OA. when i move my arm, it hurts.
i cried last night because i was so annoyed with him. tinatrato niya ako parang utusan and it's really starting to get to me. pam was telling me about this before, that i should tell him na i can't do everything for me and that i can only take so much. sinabi ko naman na sa kanya yan and he just told me i was being melodramatic. i was so pissed off yesterday i couldn't help but cry. i was trying hard not to get angry at him that it feels so stupid already. may diplomasya nako kahapon and i was explaining to him why i didn't want to do everything for him. sana naman naisip na talaga niya na everytime i help him, he shouldn't expect me to do everything for him. minsan kasi pag humihingi sha ng favor i end up do everything up to the littlest detail. kahapon yung pinakanakakainis. he urgently needs to join this yahoo group for his esthetics class and he has been telling me about this since sunday pa. i told him to get the details so i could join for him while im online. gusto niya ako pa ang tumawag kay bal to ask for the details when he could've just texted him to ask. i ended up calling bal to ask for the group name which he couldn't give to me for some reason i don't know. through e-mail nalang daw niya ibibigay which he wasn't able to do dahil nanaman sa isang rason na hindi ko alam.(sobrang unreliable ng friends niya.OA) tapos mula nung sunday kinukulit niya ako na isali na sha na di ko naman magawa dahil di ko nga alam ung group name. tapos kagabi pinipilit nanaman niya ako tumawag kela bal, e busy phone nila so sabi ko sa iba nalang niya kunin. sabi niya si sheryl nalang daw. so sabi ko sige text mo. amputa, ako pa ang gusto niyang magtext kay sheryl. talk about makapal. e hindi ko na nakayanan, nagsnap nako. (sa text nagsnap e no. haha) tapos nag-alboroto nako. apparently he doesn't understand why im bitching about it, akala niya ayoko lang shang tulungan. kamon. after all the things i've done for him he still thinks i refuse to help him. mega katulong na nga niya ako e ano pa bang hindi ko nagagawa. anyway, super kupal niya kagabi na sa sobrang inis ko nasabi ko nang manhid sha and all tapos ang sinabi lang niya ay "Ok." punyeta.
siguro mga 2:10 in the morning, he texted me goodnite, apologized and said i love you. i wasn't quite convinced since i knew he would just be doing the same thing all over again. sorry really never works for me. that's why i only say sorry when i really mean it. anyho, i've got more important things to do. im not going to wait until he comes to his senses dahil sa ngayon, he's the last thing on my mind.