Saturday, September 06, 2008
naiinis ako, feeling ko pag nararamdaman ko nang may nauuna na sa akin nawawala nanaman ako sa sirkulasyon. pakiramdam ko, di ko nanaman alam kung gusto ko ba itong ginagawa ko o hinde.
art has always been a part of me for as long as i can remember. i started out really early and i also saw early on that i had a knack for it. pero ito ung catch, i am not as enthusiastic as the other artists in checking out the latest in art. ung tipong usong genre ng art. i may sound arrogant pero i only cared about my art kaya di ako mashadong masipat ng mga bago ngayon. minsan lang nakakahuli tlga sa usapan pag hindi mo alam. ewan, nagrationalize lang siguro kase parang ineequate ko ung lack of interest ko sa ibang art dun sa confusion ko na baka nga hindi ito ang gsto kong life long career. but i think im doing well at work so there's no reason to think na wala akong talent for this. kailangan ko na nga sigurong maging mas observant sa mga art ngayon because i have to keep up if i want to stay in this industry. hehe besides, i really can't think of anything else to do other than what im doing now. pero ngayon, meron na akong motivation to do better. basta secret ko nalang yun. basta din, i will be great someday. hehe...
i will break free from your hold. marami pang iba jan. i shouldn't even bother thinking about having a future with you because we tried for the nth time and it's just not working. titibayan ko nalang ang kalooban ko kase mejo di ako stable when it comes to you. i can tell the world how much i hate having that memory of you but i still take time to reply to your txt messages. mejo kelangan ko nang manindigan.