Thursday, August 02, 2007

You have to do something liberating. Give yourself a break, and enjoy your own company.At one point, you have to face your heartaches alone --- without expecting someone to hug you. At one point, you have to face the world, learn to hold your OWN hand and grow up.
--something i read from someone else's blog

dammit what is wrong with this thing. i cannot remove the italics. gaah nevermind.

each day is a step towards healing and true happiness.

i've never felt more free in my life. im not saying this because i can already smoke my lungs out and i can flirt with any boy if i want to. it just feels liberating to do all these things and not worry about him getting mad at what i do. if he had loved me for who i am, for what i like and what i do, maybe we would've understood each other even more. hindi naman ako nasakal sakanya. i just wasn't used to being told what to do and what not to do. anyway, it doesn't matter anymore because i no longer have to please him, nor should i ask permission to to do what i want to do. nafeel ko na na it wasn't right to have done all those things for him. it wasn't a fair game. i gave him my hand and he took my arm. tama na. i've given enough chances. wala nakong pake kung nagsisisi siya and i don't want to give this another chance. i don't think i can trust him anymore. from the start, issue na yung trust. i guess it's best if we kept things this way. baka ung chance na maging friends kami in the future mawala pa...

ok masaya ako ngayon. tama na ang drama.

(11:28 PM)