he asked for time to think. what am i supposed to feel? i feel like a mess right now.

it's okay with me if he wants time to think. i think that's better than me being paranoid like 100% of the time. it's just that i don't feel okay right now. i really can't figure out why. ever since i got back from caleruega, things have not been going well.(relationship wise) im guessing it's my fault because i made things complicated. im sorry but i just can't help but feel terrible. you can't blame me for not trusting him that much. after what happened before, it's just so hard for me to trust him fully. part of me tells me he's really making up for what he did before that's why he's trying his best to be honest.


but sometimes, too much honesty hurts...


even if i feel he really does love me, nahihirapan lang talaga ako to accept na he's confused right now... feeling ko kasi he doesn't love me enough. feeling ko din di ko siya mapasaya ng todo. sabi nga, no matter how hard you try, if you're not the right medicine, you can never cure the pain. maybe im just not doing enough to make him happy kaya kahit anong gawin ko, lecheng di niya makalimutan ung babaeng yun.

to clear things up, i don't hate dharlene.(with an H hahaha) wala siyang kasalanan. it's boyfriend's fault. pag nilandi lang niya si boyfriend, ah punyeta sha. kasalanan na nga talaga niya......... pero malamang yan, di ko malalaman kung ano na nangyayari.





ewan. siguro nga i need time to think too. :(




ganito ba yung pakiramdam ng cool off? parang di muna kayo tapos nakakalungkot tapos may uncertainty kasi di mo alam kung babalikan ka pa niya o hinde?


























huhuhuhuhuhuhu :' (

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

----

ang baduy ko leche. wala lang. im just glad i spoke to pam yesterday because now i can stop thinking about myself and i can stop being paranoid. i know it won't hurt as much to trust him this time. i just need to have faith in him. after all, he chose me over her. umiyak pa. i'd rather lose him in another way than lose him because i am extremely paranoid and he's starting to get sick of it. i have to learn how to trust him. we won't be seeing each other until tuesday again. pag hindi ako nakampante, ako naman ang madadiagnose ng schizophrenia. joke lang. pucha baka magkatotoo.

i just realized, women are indeed crazy.




ok fine im sorry i can't help it. malamig sha sakin ngayon at alam kong kasalanan ko. e kase naman e. huhuhu. i am super duper paranoid from here to there.





im sorry because i also super duper love him from here to there. :(

1.say something about ur lyf.
> right now, i am extremely paranoid.

2. fave song/s as for now?
> make me whole - amel larrieux

3. fave tv show as for now?
> wala pang grey's e..wala mashado hehe

4. last movie you saw?
> harry potter and the order of the phoenix

5. most expensive object you bought
with your own money?
> face base from body shop. pucha 900 ung isang tube non. i only bought that twice. i stopped buying it because it was expensive and it was the reason why my face broke out with zits.

6. yosi or beer? explain.
> it's like making me choose between my brother and my mom hahaha.

8. have u ever fallen in love w/a
friend?
> doi.

9. what song is currently playing?
> coz your eyes are the windows to heaven~ make me whole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10. any pets? what are their names?
>i have cats. si cosmo, george, rambo, carmen, puti, bogart at muning hahaha

11. may nasuntok ka na ba?
> Wala pa naman, may nakasuntok na saken hahaha

12. ano ung sabi nung sinuntok mu?
> wala nga!

13. which do u prefer? jollibee or
mcdo?
> mcdo

14. wendy's or kfc? y?
> ay hirap naman

15. ever broken someone's heart?
> malay ko

16. ever had your heart broken?
> Several times

17. what did u do to the person who
broke your heart?
> ung isa, tumigil ako kakapursue. yung isa, pinagbigyan ko at bnoypren ko na hahahaha.

18. what's inside your pocket?
> wala

19. fave past time?
> Internet...

20.biggest regret in life?
> a lot

21.worst experience you've been
through?
> hmm... there are so many i can't pick just one

22.best place you'd rather be?
> right now, any place i can relax

23. would you kiss on a 1st date?
> hahaha no

24.last time u cried?
> the other day

25.anong ginawa mo ngayong araw na to?
> wala pa naman. dapat siguro naliligo nako kase pucha malalate nanaman ako panigurado

26. huling tinext mo?
> C boyfriend

27. describe yourself in one-two words
> extremely paranoid

28. huling ginawa mo kagabi bago
matulog?
> nag-thesis at nag-isip nanaman.

29. nakapunta ka na ba sa cebu?
> Hindi pa.

30. huling inutos sayo ng magulang mo?
> wala pa kase di kami nagkita bago sila pumasok sa office hahaha

31.magulo ba dyan sa lugar nyo?
> Hindi naman

32.happy ka ba ngaun? Y?
> shempre hinde. pwede narin.

33. nakapunta ka na ba sa malabon zoo?
> oo nung kabataan ko

34. huli mong kinain?
> chicken nuggets

35. huli mong ininom?
> Water

36. naka-experience ka na ba ng
lindol?
> oo twice

37. kelan ka huling sumakay ng
elevator?
> kahapon shempre

38. anong gagawin mo bukas?
> baka ndi nako pumasok kase pucha baka di ako makatakas. pero parang gusto ko shang isurprise bukas at ihatid sa school kasi retreat nila pero para naman akong gago non. ang layo mehn.

39. huling tumawag sayo sa phone/cp?
> wala naman

40. anong oras ka natutulog?
>depende

41. huling tanong,hows your lovelife?
> hay nako punyeta. on the rocks.HAHAHAHA jolog ampota.

life is still a bitch, and so am i. you either love me or hate me. YAYAMAN DIN AKO. haha --margarita

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